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I actually have no idea where to start...
maybe I will start by my introducing myself?

I was saved when I was year 8
I would have never guess that my life would turn out like this
never thought there was actually a super-natural who wanted a relationship with me
Before I met God, I was a buddhist since everyone in my family was...
Went to the temple every now and then
Worshipping and burning incense to different statue
As a kid back then, everything seems to work out miraculously
I remembered that I prayed for good results for Chinese test
and then I had 70% and I was the happiest person alive
thinking that my prayers were answered

Anw, let's talk about more recent years
After knowing Christ, my life really changed so much
I looked back and sometimes, wonder what will happen if I didn't meet him
I'm growing everyday and experiencing the works of the Holy Spirit
I probably wouldn't have survived till this day if it weren't for him
There're many blessings I have recieved; too many to even count

In the early days when I became a new Christian,
I used to treat God like a vending machine
that if I do or say something good, I can request something of him
but then, I realised that God has other duties he wants to fulfill
He didn't just want to be a God whom everyone fears
nor did he want to be a God where everyone just goes to him to ask for favours for themselves

He wants to be our Father
He wants a personal relationship with US
He loves us as his children
everyone of us
He moulds each of us and knows our name even before we're born
Nothing we do will make him love us more or less
He MADE us so how can he not love us?
He GAVE his only son to die for us so we could live again so how can we say we're worthless to God?
Till this very day, He has never given up on us
Jesus is still waiting behind the door of our hearts
He's waiting for us to open our hearts and accept him as Saviour

When I heard of such a loving and compassionate God,
how can I resist not recognising him?

Yet, I am flawed
Throughout these 4 years of being a Christian
There're times where I was led astray from him
where I felt that I could rely on myself

I'm ashamed to be making use of God sometimes,
where I only care about myself
and not for his sake
where I would only come to God when I needed something
where I would only pray when problems are too huge for me to handle

Being a Christian is so much harder than I thought
The spiritual battles that I have to fight
The struggles I faced in the world
trying to be just like Jesus
and not letting myself be a stumbling block for others
Nevertheless, God is always there with me
I feel his presence throughout all pains, hardships, joy and peace
He never lets me bear more than I can
b/c He is always there to carry my burden

Read Footprints if you haven't already!!

The journey is hard, I must say
The ups and downs are a turnoff
but this is life, I suppose
but I never regret choosing this route to follow my Christ