It seems that I have been neglecting this blog alot
what I really feel is that,
sometimes, I don't feel fit enough to blog about God
that I'm unworthy.
But I know I shouldn't feel this way
We're all His children
and we all have the right to speak about our relationship with our father yeah?
I have been going back to my old church for the past 2 weeks
and it feels good to be there again
Now that I have my freedom again,
I feel like I should do so many things
like studying God's word.
But I keep procastrinating again
Then, I start to think
Maybe God isn't my focus
that studying His Word isn't my first priority.
I'm in state of self denial
Always believing that I had, have and will put God as my first
but looks like my actions are contradicting itself
I have been blinded by alot of things
and I often feel that spending time and catching up with friends is so much more important
but two days ago,
when I was doing QT,
I came across a passage from Too Busy Not to Pray by Bill Hybels
and it uses the analogy of sailing in the storm
The author writes that when he was young, he used to go sailing in his dad's boat with his friends
It's nice having a pal with you when sailing
but when you approach the storm, an inexperienced crew would be of no use.
On the other hand, when he was with his dad, he looked forward to the storm
because his had had sailed across the Atlantic Ocean
and there's nothing he wouldn't be able to handle when the storm is near.
As you enjoy God's presence in your life, you become increasingly aware of your companion's identity and power and character. Nothing is too difficult for God to handle. There are no limits to his power. Life can't throw anything at you that you can't handle with God.
Life for me right now seems to be quite smooth
but I can't see what's ahead of me.
Regardless though, I know that in this journey,
there're bound to be hardship, heartbreaks, tragedies and trials
that I will have to face.
Don't we all love to do that though?
when life's good.
We put God aside and enjoy the companionship of the world
then when crisis hit,
we run to Him for help.
I don't want to sit back and enjoy the smooth sailing with the world
but I want to cling on to Him
regardless of whether it's smooth sailing or I'm approaching a storm.
becos either way, I will be able to enjoy his presence, assurances and his strength.
I guess afterall,
I want to be more grateful.
Thank you.
what I really feel is that,
sometimes, I don't feel fit enough to blog about God
that I'm unworthy.
But I know I shouldn't feel this way
We're all His children
and we all have the right to speak about our relationship with our father yeah?
I have been going back to my old church for the past 2 weeks
and it feels good to be there again
Now that I have my freedom again,
I feel like I should do so many things
like studying God's word.
But I keep procastrinating again
Then, I start to think
Maybe God isn't my focus
that studying His Word isn't my first priority.
I'm in state of self denial
Always believing that I had, have and will put God as my first
but looks like my actions are contradicting itself
I have been blinded by alot of things
and I often feel that spending time and catching up with friends is so much more important
but two days ago,
when I was doing QT,
I came across a passage from Too Busy Not to Pray by Bill Hybels
and it uses the analogy of sailing in the storm
The author writes that when he was young, he used to go sailing in his dad's boat with his friends
It's nice having a pal with you when sailing
but when you approach the storm, an inexperienced crew would be of no use.
On the other hand, when he was with his dad, he looked forward to the storm
because his had had sailed across the Atlantic Ocean
and there's nothing he wouldn't be able to handle when the storm is near.
As you enjoy God's presence in your life, you become increasingly aware of your companion's identity and power and character. Nothing is too difficult for God to handle. There are no limits to his power. Life can't throw anything at you that you can't handle with God.
Life for me right now seems to be quite smooth
but I can't see what's ahead of me.
Regardless though, I know that in this journey,
there're bound to be hardship, heartbreaks, tragedies and trials
that I will have to face.
Don't we all love to do that though?
when life's good.
We put God aside and enjoy the companionship of the world
then when crisis hit,
we run to Him for help.
I don't want to sit back and enjoy the smooth sailing with the world
but I want to cling on to Him
regardless of whether it's smooth sailing or I'm approaching a storm.
becos either way, I will be able to enjoy his presence, assurances and his strength.
I guess afterall,
I want to be more grateful.
Thank you.
